WHY ARE YOU SO FRUSTRATING.

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When I pray

I believe someone is listening.

Someone, anyone.

And they tell me "its all for the best"

and Candide may disagree and I may be too optomisitic but there isn't one person

who can make or break you.

Maturity is realizing you are responsible for yourself.

Prayer is the perfect excuse

to justify the voices in my head.

Next Chapter.

This is supposed to be the Next. Chapter.

Not a continuation of what we have now.

I don't want to be in high school forever.

We all grow up at some point.

All I know is

I'm ready for the rest of my life.

Technology

is going to destroy the world.

Robots taking human jobs

microwaves giving humans cancer (the scientists haven't figured this one out yet)

social networking sites creating lack of real life connections

computers designed to simulate the emotions of mankind (the government doesn't want us to know about this one yet)

I think we would be wiser

as I type these words

to step back

away from monitors and microwaves and modern necessities

and think for ourselves

before the right is taken away without us realizing it.

I'm on my own, I'll never say anything right

We are both too weird

this will never work

I don't know what more to say to you

and you don't know what to say to me at all.

Today

was the worst

I am so on the edge about everything:

college

friends

boys

school

If you said boo to me

I would break down at this point.

I want all this college stress to be over.

I live on da edgee

DiVaZZ

Even though I may have said it several times, I meant it.

I'm obsessed. And when I can't see you, I feel like I'm going to go crazy.

I want you to know it

and I want you to feel the same.

But your sweatshirt says it all with the hood over your face and I can't keep staring at your mouth without wondering how it tastes.

(You).

If I move from my place in line, I'll lose.

I hope you aren't like everyone else.

I hope that I can be different.

I hope that I like you.

I hope I can let myself like you

or even be okay with the idea

that you might like me back.

I hope my mind stops thinking so much.

I know what I want

but I don't know if I will let myself have it.

I never let myself have what I want

because then, I wouldn't have anything

to be unhappy about.

Maybe

you'll change me

you'll set me

on the straightest path.

Well baby

you cant save me.

I am uncaged.

A Milli

girlcrush.
along with someone else... <3

I was never your favorite.

And you say I've changed.Look at yourself for five seconds and see if you can recognize the person you were freshman year, because I sure can't. Anything that mattered to you then wouldn't now. Why aren't we friends? I never said I wanted to be. I just wondered why not.

YOU have changed much more than me.

You still are the same, ignorant selfish person you were four years ago,

I guess that's one similarity.

What isn't to love about me?

I shouldn't be ashamed

I'm attractive enough
funny enough.
I'm enough
You have no reason to think otherwise.

I feel 10,000 miles away from where I should be, where I want to be.

It seems like I didn't work hard enough to go where I want to go.

But I have worked too hard to go where I will probably end up going.
It hurts to hear, oh hey you aren't good enough for us, k bye.

I JUST WANT IT ALL TO WORK OUT, K?

Quote

"The sky may seem like it's falling, but that's only because you're about to fly"

How optomistic of me.

I sleep better when I dream.

When I close my eyes
flashing fields of purpleandyellow cover my eyes

You

are so rude.
Do you have no respect?
Dont you know?
You cant call anyone, especially friends of your children
"druggies"
Offense will be taken accordingly.

Do you remember when we sailed all the way to Mexico just to see if we could?
Do you remember when we walked for hours with no idea where we were, hoping to find something we were looking for?
Do you remember me crying to you when I coudn't handle everything that was happening?
Do you remember the cherry chocolate ice cream, that neither of us could never say no to?
Do you remember being happy, being in love, with me?
Yeah, me neither.

You Were Not Invited to the Other Side of Sanity

I want my mind to be filled with happy shallow thoughts
and summer and cute clothes.
I don't want to deal with school any more.

I'm going to switch out keys soon so you have no cloice but to be stuck with me :)

Sorry

For never responding to your text
but you see, it wasn't my fault,
and it never was because it cannot be my fault.
There are unlimited excuses for reasons I do nothing wrong.
I can't won't take responsibility.
I think you were wrong.
I couldntt love you, or even definitely like you.
I may be indecisive, but mostly
you are plain annoying.

Forever

If I ever get a tattoo, I want something like this.

STAREDAD

I like smells
and sights and sounds.
I like busy weekends
and not knowing what is next
I like disorganization
and disorder.
I like knowing that the best is still to come.
I like beginnings but never endings.
I like people
except stupid ones.
But there are few things I love.