Purgatory within

Wading in the lukewarm waters of apathy
neither able to feel the warmth of the sun
or the cold waters of depression.
It is a fog.
Unable to move
speak
breathe
think
talk
and most certainly not love.
It is pleasantly disguised indifference.
Hands stretch out
just out of reach.
White
lack of color
lack of anything and everything.
Try to swim away, they dare you.
You reflect on your lack of being.
You realize something is better than nothing
sink down, down into the blue.

I am not sure of anything anymore.
I wish I had one thing in my life
where I could say, that's it.
This is how it's supposed to be
but I don't.
I was caught creepin today.
I hope you don't know too much.

I love your hats

I love your face.

I hope you dont know,

at least not yet.

Everything looks better from far away

The Happiness of Childhood

As you grow older,

you realize that nothing that seemed important matters.

I wish everything was still important

and I believed in magic.

The world is so cold.

I wish

I always had so much to say, I guess I just never knew how to say it.

The Space between

Life is like one of those books

that let you make a decision at the end of each chapter.

The paths you go down sometime lead to dead ends,

or being in the same place where you started.
And usually, there is only one option

that will make you completely happy.

How are we supposed to know we are doing what will make us happy?

In life, there is no way to flip the pages back.

As much as it may suck,

I sometimes wish I had five chances at highschool.

To do list

I need more confidence.

In everything.

You are a girl who has it all.

We were not meant
to think or to love.

Sometimes those who mean the most, are those you will never know.

I Wonder

About alternate universes

and if there are people in the hallways of mirrors.

There is no way we are alone in this place

that we call the galaxy.

I wonder if they have seen us

and if the ones who never came back,

simply new too much.

The human race is far too stupid to be the best there is.

Man, I wish I was an alien.

If it's by air, I don't wanna know.

If we all don't take cover, then we're all gonna fall back in love again.

Maybe we were never meant to say hello.

A Word on Connor Oberst

I can think of no other explaination of how such talent exists. Every word you have ever written or sang- is true. Thank you for being the most honest, versatile, and relatable musician to ever exist. You are tortured, but can still make people happy. I don't know how you do it, but here's to you, Connor.

This is the first day of my life.

Moments Before Time Stands Still

We planted new seeds, beads of hope desperate to save the parched and cracked soil.
We said no to the corporations and men in the towers who sold our land in search of profit.
We stood and sat and slept on the highways, caravans of people stretched across the streets.
We whispered to the stars, and listened to stories of universes much like ours, that had been destroyed by greed.
We apologized for all harm we caused, we didn't know. We didn't know.
And in that moment we rose our hands to the sky, across the nation, united as one with the earth.

Why is life so much better when you learn to care less?

Basic Space

Happiness does not come from an excess or lack of something or another.
It is a distant place
that most cannot reach.
Smiling is not the same as being happy.
Skeletons could smile, if they wanted to.
Have you ever wanted something so much,
even though its impossible?

The man in the doorway

You make things quite difficult.

Would you rather

Which is worse: to be an empty person who seems happy or a happy person who seems empty?

Seasonal Regrets

This time of year reminds me of unspeakables.

Places I have never been

and will never be.

People I have never met

and will never speak to.

And the love I never had

and never will.

Its all in the wind.

The Collective

Who do you like?
"Everybody, nobody and somebody"

And the truth is

I believe because I can't stand the thought that there isn't someone who knows everything about the world, that we are actually alone.

Who I've Been

I'm sorry for everything I have done,

and will continue to do.

I couldn't change even if

I wanted to.

Maybe, we were never meant to know eachother.

Some things happen because they are supposed to happen.

We call this "Fate"

Maybe, some things happen that were never meant to be.

We call this "accidents"

I wish I had never accidentally ruined your life.

The science of reality

No matter how you define it,
I will still think that I am better than you.

Is that a bad thing?

Humanity was built to have hierarchy,

why try to fight it.

I never said I was at the top.

No ReGretzz

A Flair for the Obvious

You said that you're melodramatic.
I would quite agree with that statement.
There is so much that I like
or should like,
but it doesn't change the fact that I don't.

Nice shoes

"But really, all we want, and I speak for the entire human race, is contact. Someone to let us know that we aren't alone. That the world isn't a dream and you and I really are happening at the same time, even if it's not in the same place. That this is real. You're really there. I'm really here. We're real."

I don't know if I should laugh or cry

I don't know if this is good.
I don't know if this is bad.
I know that I feel sick.
Why do you make me so sick?

I am afraid of tomorrow
and what it will mean for every day after that.

I'm sorry I was never good at explainations

or emotions.

jnjnjnjnjnjnjn <3
that is all.

The sequences of today

We never think in terms of the present.
Always the past and the future.

Never can I ever let go

I can't confront you,

I never could do,
That which might hurt you,

So try 'n be cool.

It takes so much to actually feel alive.

And now everything that should make you happy makes you sad.
And its all unclear when you crossed the lines, or if the lines even existed.