Obviously, I'm going to take unidentified drugs from strangers.

I agree

I need a weekend away

or even a day

where I don't need to deal with

school or being grounded

or parents

to just relax

without everything I do being inherently suspicious.

I've got a disease

Now, I am more confused than ever.

Hit the Switch

Theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense and in the middle of drinks maybe the fifth or the sixth I'm completely alone at a table of friends I feel nothing for them, I feel nothing.

I remember

When you were my best friend

the only person in the whole world who could make me happy when I was sad.

How you said you would always be there for me

and would protect me from people who tried to hurt me.

So, where are you now?

How can you hate someone who is meant to be your best friend

it makes no sense

I wasn't asking for you to marry me

just to always be there like you promised.

It makes me so upset to think about it now.

And when we speak

Time and time again the truth becomes lies

and the lies become a way of life
these towns cannot carry on the end will come soon

and we will only have ourselves

to blame.

The courtship will have the final say

on who shall become one of nonexistence.

Summer

Nothing matters.

Everything looks better

because

whatever happened is over

transition between one year and the next

its time to be happy again.

So you tried to out a fire out, but you used gasoline.

So there's a sickness that is going round
but no one's got a vaccine
I think we're treading holy water,
I think it's time we all come clean.

Sunscreen

"I just thought of the most ghetto idea..."
HAHA

I'm sad, because I know I live with regrets

I never take risks

I am much too comfortable being where I am

to give something unknown a chance

So I guess, I will never know how most things

would have turned out.

Such Small Hands

I think I saw you in my sleep, darling.

Maybe

People write songs that explain how much I suck
I get it.
But its not that easy
you see
people don't right songs
about not being sure about things
indecision is not worth mentioning.
You just got caught in the middle
of it all.

I think law is an interesting subject
because really, everything is a matter of opinion.
The older you get
the more you realize
the harder it is to forget
that rarely is something seen in black and white
its all about the shades of gray.

I want to break free

If you think things are going your way-

think again.

All I want is for you to

Complete Me.

With Burning Eyes

I have come to the realization

that there is no way

that I will be happy while I still live in this house.

I like this hair

It's really bright.

HONESTLY

Because you won't listen to a word I have to say in real life:

I don't need more roadblocks, I have enough of my own thank you.
Why is it that any time I try to do something semi-productive,
the idea is shot down?
And I know you made that up on the spot.
I would think you would want me to spend my time out of trouble,
thats the goal of being grounded?
Why do you have to make it
so all I want to do is leave?
It doesn't have to be this way
we can get along.
I was willing to try.
I'm not crazy
I'm not crazy
I know it.

She said

This is such a short chapter of my life

We will get through this,

we will get through this.

See you on the other side.

20000 underneath the sea

I think I'm too stressed

because I spend way too much time thinking

inside of my head

and not enought time talking to people.

When you spend too much time with your thoughts

thats when it all goes wrong.

Let's just keep it classy.

I miss pointe

I had to have a copy of this somewhere

*Not my writing or emotions

*I feel so dead to the world I feel like everything is floating along over my head. Things are blank again but this time its not a choice this time I can't get out. I'm just too exhausted to do anything. I don't want to speak there's nothing in my head. It takes too much energy to get the words formed and pushing out through my lips and whatever I say when I do say things don't matter the world is too noisy my words get lost or I just f**k things up. There's a fog all around me a bubble that stops feelings and the only thing that gets through now is annoyance. And the rest is just dull and my head is empty and my chest is empty. I don't even have the energy to pretend like I care. Last night I sat in my chair on the phone with him and cut and just talked dully and he said you sound upset I'm coming over. He got me a McFlurry and we sat in a parking lot and talked and I felt better then this morning the blank came back again. Something is wrong in my head I feel pathetic I feel too needy.

When did things go so wrong?
I'm sorry
I hope you are well.

I want to take guitar lessons, now.

I don't really know you, but that's ok.
Maybe my idea of you is better than any reality ever could be.
Let's continue on with the charade.

This picture is so cute that it doesn't even make sense.

Taken by Maddie Atkinson.

WHEN are you going to let go?

The Finish Line

I know this is too beautiful, but I hope at the end of the world, when we all know we are done and there is no reason to fight, there can be peace. I hope we gather at the seas and spend our last moments together, the way we were meant to be. Together. It will be the end. The end to violence, and anger, and evil. The end to it all. And when it is almost over: I hope the end of the world arrives graciously and without human resistance. Remember, no human can calm a storm. Instead, we should spend our last moments clasped in each others arms, living vicariously for ourselves, holding nothing back. No one should be alone. I hope that you, and I and all of mankind can find our destinies before it all goes up in flames.

Maybe no one really cares what I have to say

Less

Is it better to be dull?

Feel less

happy

sad
everything?

Or fight to feel something,
even if most of the time its sadness

I'm losing it all.

How can you not believe in love?

I think that would be so sad.
I have never been in love

but I'm sure its real,

and I'm the pessimist.

I don't believe this

But I know you do Golnar

Hello, my first name is distance,

And I really dont care if I never wake up again.