As much as you suck

You may have a point with meditation and awareness.
I need to learn to be patient.
I need to learn to be kind.
I need to learn to just stop.

Not quite sure
if I am screaming running towards my future
or slowly trying to back up and stay where I am.
I don't want this all to end.

Screaming infidelities

And all I can do is wonder
what in the world you could be doing right now
and wishing I could be there.
Today was good
you should be like that every day.

i like talking to you.
i like that your entire poem,
was our conversation.
and i like your stupid enlightened ideas.
even if you maybe got them from someone else.
because really, he doesnt count.

you & me. you & me. that is an awful lie.
its i & i.

Slick tapping tops
licking lips
moist wet cold.
Nothing is happy in this world,
besides what does not exist or is unreal.
Or what is yet to be discovered.
Slippery sliding
we met at the crossroads
one of us arriving
one just leaving
(we never knew which was which)
like a whale line tying us to our inevitable fates
we were pulled together
irresistable
unforgettable
unsustainable
but the last part we ignored
we lived in eden
and there was no shame.
Until the slick slippery sliding
when we both fell
hard
in love.

A Flock of Weatherboxes

These days I am learining to find happiness in new and different places.
So if that is your goal, congratulations.