Or Maybe Not

Maybe, we were afraid of too many maybes,
the unknown.
Maybe, we were afraid that if we tried
things wouldn't fit
and we would end up with broken puzzle peices.
Maybe, we were mistaken that never trying
is better than trying, and failing.

I like Plans.

Why write words,

if no one is going to read them?

Why sing songs for no one to hear?

Why think thoughts and make plans,

if you never act on them?

Why say "I love you"

if you don't mean it?

You could never mean it.

I'm sorry but you don't know love is.

I miss dance :(

Beautiful.

Why is this so funny?

Merry almost Christmas.

Don't lose faith, dear.

You are lucky

You are blessed

You are fortunate for all you were given.

But you are not happy.

On Repeat.

I think I saw you in my sleep, darling
I think I saw you in my dreams you were
stitching up the seams on every broken promise
that your body couldn't keep.
I think I saw you in my sleep.

I wish I was her friend, too.

Favorite Song, 3 years.

Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspending like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings
over the parkway
tonight.
And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing everybody wake up (wake up) its time to get down
(everybody wake up its time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause its all been done and its all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)

The hell out of this town
find some conversation.
The low fuel light's been on for days,
it doesn't mean anything.
I've got another 500 another 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down.

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
so we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we'll keep them going constantly.
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause its all been done and its all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)

(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
Eighteen forever
(your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation)
So we can stay like this forever
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
And we'll never miss a party
(and your tearing up your photos cause you wanna forget... its over)
cause we keep them going constantly
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
And we'll never have to listen
(your stomachs filled up but you're starved for conversation)
to anyone about anything cause its all been done
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
and it's all been said
(and your tearing up your photos cause you wanna forget... its over)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get

Just jealous cause we're young and in love
You're just jealous cause we're young and in love
You're just jealous cause we're young and in love
You're just jealous cause we're young and in love
You're just jealous cause we're young and in love
You're just jealous cause we're young and in love.

I'd like to be,

under the sea,

in an octopus' garden

with you.

How is this even real?

And when they come back for us

who will they take?

Will it be based on good behavior,

like God

or beauty

or intelligence

or completely random,

like most things seem to be?

In the world of the unknown

unseen unheard unspoken

is there a heaven?

Or is life itself heaven enough?

The One Thing You Never Understood

Let us make art

and get lost at night

and take the long way home,

just for fun.

Its all about the journey,

not the destination.

This I Miss

I need the smell of summer,
I need its noises in my ears.
If looks could really kill,
then my profession would be staring
please know we do this cause we care
not for the thrill.
-Brand New

Its amazing how different this year is.

I really feel disconnected from it all.
School
most of my friends
homework
ASB

I think I like it.

The Dreams

Last summer things got hazy and I ended up in a band...

Why don't you understand.
No means no.
I can't be more clear with this
and I was never direct.
Don't make things difficult.
Please
just
move
on.

It should be a big deal.

I should be happy.

Or at least feel something, right?

Growing up really isn't that important.

10 things

If I could say ten things to ten different people right now, I would say:

1. You creep me out
2. I am sad this is going to end
3. I miss you and I hope you miss me
4. Don't go crazy I love you
5. I sincerely miss your friendship but I know its gone forever
6. You are annoying
7. Don't leave me over break, I need you
8. I stalk you
9. I like you
10. You have no reason to be on this list.

My thoughts exactly

Thetruthisthatireallylikeyouandikindofstalkyouoccasionallybutnotinacreepywayjustinawaythatmeansicareandithinkyoucouldlikemetooifwegottoknoweachotherandyouarereallycuteandwhydoyoukeeplookingatmeihopeitsnotbecauseyouknowthatimcrazyiwishyoucouldhaveknownthisalotsoonerithinkyouarereallysmartandnotaquietkidapparentlyandiappreciateyourmusicandyourstyleandwellyou.

I know I would be happy.

Dirty city walls

sticky

graffitti.
Unwashed hair

clothes

feet.

Cold crisp air.

Warm sweaters.

Warm hands.
Apartment buildings up high.

Noise and glitter,

everywhere.

Good books to read.

Let's see the world together,

it's not too far away.

I'm sick of the same old thing.

Over and over

a daily cycle of sadness

I want something new
places I have never seen

people I will never meet

memories.

I want siginificance.

Truthfully

E v e r y t h i n g

means

n
o
t
h
i
n
g

to me these days

I'm not sure if I know you,

but I like the idea of who you are

and what we could be.

It's a crazy world, man.

I need this.
I need this.
I need this.
I will never have it.
I can't have what I want.

Ginger family

I wish I lived

in this gingerbread dream

with plastic reindeer and electric lights.

Nothing needs to be real.

I'd make this a simpler story

I was amazed at the colors and shapes you drew,
a paper cut for two.
-Manchester Orchestra

Silver Scales

And just as much as I drive you crazy,

you drive me crazy.

It isn't revenge.
It's equality.

So many notes we can't hear
so many colors we can't see.
I want to live in the eighth dimension

My Favorite Things

1. Kittens
2. Being warm
3. Water
4. Winter clothes
5. chai tea lattes
6. Friends
7. cute underwear
8. someone
9. laughing
10. writing
11. reading
12. racing
13. not seeing people i know
14. robot unicorn
15. the future
16. space
17. music
18. dance
19. things that smell nice
20. big jewelry
21. breakable things
22. art
23. secrets
24. sleeping
25. exploring new places
26. the cliffs
27. warm wind
28. egypt
29. nighttime
30. getting into college

This is not complete.

Golnar

You should make your room look like this !

LGFUAD

Do you believe you're missing out?

And that everything good is happening somewhere else?

But with nobody in your bed
the night's hard to get through.

-Brand New

Competition

There is nothing wrong with wanting to be happy. There is something wrong with wanting to be the happiest, to feel better than everyone else, even if it makes others feel bad.