This is not about me

It's about you.
It's for you.

This is for the woman working the late night shift at CVS.
This is for children living in starvation

This is for my mother

This is for your mother.

This is about humanity and its divine reception

in 40 years.

This is about everything

and consequently nothing.

This is about awareness and education

v o i c e s you hear in your sleep

Those were never dreams

Those were friends of the past present and future

You may never meet.

They were my voice

they were the voices of the children,

hungry and dying.

They were voices for the world

Which means they said everything
you would ever need to know about humanity.

And consequently, nothing.

THESE NAILS.

The best dreams are the ones that make you wish you would never wake up.

I had two last night

I want my mind to be empty

of all thoughts

good bad and ugly.

And just float for a bit.

In less than two months I will know where I have been accepted to college.

In three months I will know where I'm going to college.

In four months I will graduate from high school.

In seven months I will be in college.

Its all so exciting, and all so close

but sometimes its hard to see anything besides what is right in front of you

which is nothing.

Confusion of truths

I don't know what to say

so I guess I will just say

okay

okay

okay

You are an adult, and should be treated as adults are supposed to be.
I'm just worried for you, thats all.
Everything will be okay.

Alot of the time, all I can say is how dare you.

Your only danger lies in safety

Life has no set expected outcome. Think of a defining moment. Think of all the steps that it took to get to that moment. What if you hadn't been walking your dog the day I drove by. What if we had never met. There is no way to control what has already happened. But as humans, we have complete control over what happens in the future. I can create my own defining moments. What if I had never studied for that test. What if I had driven to school, five minutes earlier, and been in an accident that ended it all. We are all time bombs. Some of us go off a lot sooner than we should, but you can never tell who, or why or when. It's all a mystery. Every situation is a risk. Getting up out of bed tomorrow morning is a risk. So why not live life to the fullest? Life itself is short. We are here 100 years or less then game over. Live vigorously.

What you see..

is never what you get.

All I can say is

You make me feel bad for you feeling bad. And it feels

well,

bad.

Young, rich & tasteless.

I really really really
can't take any more disappointment.
Not from anyone.
When I asked if I was normal,
I wish you wouldn't have answered
or at least lied about it.
I'm not the one with the problems here.

There is way too much stress in my life.

Its not school

its not friends

its not family

its me.

I need to learn how to be happy for me

because no matter what,

people dissapoint you.

The older you get,

the more you realize you can't rely on anyone.

Because growing up is

supposed to be independence, right?

Highest of highs

Are always followed by the lowest of lows
And and and
I haven't felt this A L O N E
in the longest time.

I shouldn't get my hopes up for things.

It would be much easier to be let down

if I never cared at all.

Beezies

GO DIE.

HES MINE.

We R Who We R

I don't want to be labeled.

I know I am.

I constantly label people

based on looks, how they present themselves, etc.

but its not fair.

I wish you would get to know me

not my shell.

"Without a reasonable but humble confidence in your own powers, you cannot be successful or happy."

I want to be healthy

Maybe I just want to sleep

its all about priorities, right?

This is SO WEIRD. YOU are so weird.
This is not normal right?
Ahaha :)

Content. Learning how to b r e a t h e

I might be lucky

To have a nice home
and family
and food to eat every night
but I am not happy.

If it seems like I am unhappy, it's because I am.

I dont u n d e r s t a n d

When I try

to become happy

and involved

I am shut down.

Coachella, job, even yoga.

I would think you would want me to be involved

in healthy activities

that would keep me out of trouble.

I'm going to stop trying.

I have way too many blues for any more bad news.